AD EP

by Brian Scott

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03:39
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04:41
3.
04:33
4.
04:50

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Although this album is 4 tracks, it is best thought of as one piece of music in four parts. Each track doesn't function that well on it's own, so if you are going to listen to it I would set aside 20 minutes, put some headphones and get comfortable.

The AD EP (Anti-depression EP) is something I felt I had to do to climb out of a funk I had been in for the past few years. Depression and mental health are things that seem to be poorly understood in this day and age. I felt like taking drugs was just another way of avoiding responsibility for my own happiness, so I prescribed myself an album instead.

Although the main goal of the album was to bring myself out of depression, I also strongly believe that depression is something that almost everyone deals with to some degree. The more people I have talked about it with the more I have been surprised with how they have been able to relate to me, and the better I have felt. It's an incredibly difficult thing to talk about. Maybe I have made it a little easier for somebody out there. I hope so!

I want to thank everyone who has been a part of my life. I Iove you all.

This ep was written and recorded in June-July of 2014

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released August 21, 2014

Music, lyrics and production - Brian Scott
*Ben Archer midi percussion solo featured on pt. 4

Album art by Katy Davis and Brian Scott

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Track Name: pt. 1
I’ve been running away
Didn’t know what to say

I don’t feel like myself
Said it all anyway

Shattered pieces remain
Why do I act insane

Cause you know all I wanna do is just call your name

And that thought remains
Every single day
But I am not the same
I tried all the wrong ways
And that thought remains
Every single day
But I am not the same
But I am not the same

I’m ashamed of myself

All my problems
On your shoulders

Sink into the abyss

Blind to reason
I did not see who I was

But as the anger fades
Clearer it becomes to see
Like the sediment sinking deep
I know I still got blood in my veins
And I’m happy that I do remain
Cause I’m young and i've got time to change
I’m tired of barking up the wrong tree
(next time I won’t even show you the key to me????? x2)
I’d forgotten I knew how to climb down
And though it felt like a strange disease
I’d really just forgotten how to be me

Oh that’s the way it seems (x4)
Track Name: pt. 2
I’ve been sitting in my room all day
(Oh you know)
I’ve been staring at the screen tryna think of something to say
(Just like before)
And I
Don’t know
Where I’m gonna be next year
But I’m hoping that you will be near
Oh I’m sorry if that is not fair
Well fuck it I love you too much

Oh no, I lost my cool again
I was cold, I didn’t wanna make a friend
All things told, I was searching like a fool of a man
For my, home with the stereo playing low
All the time pretending I’m the man that you used to know

And I did not cope
When I was on my own
I had nothing going on

I didn’t feel like myself
And I was wrong
To try and restore my health
In your arms
I did not trust myself anymore, myself anymore
So I sunk to the floor, with my foot in the door
Making you feel my pain
Oh noooooo, oh no, oh why would you sing my name
Oh nooo, I proclaim, I’m sorry that I was that way
Oh nooo oh no, oh I’m sorry that I did not look inside from your eyes (this time??)

Oh and I know it’s too late for me to realize
That I wasted your time
Oh wish that I could have seen all that I had
I did not focus on my life

I’m singing oh I missed the boat
Oh I’m singing oh but I miss you so
Awww yeah you know!
Track Name: pt. 3
My fists are clenched again
I’m losing my best friend
My mind is a broken land
But I’ve got no other home

Of course I know it’s true
I’ll be fine, In due time
(But I can’t stop thinking)
It’s not right
(no I can’t stop thinking of you)
It’s not right
It’s not right

(So everyday)
Wake up with the rising
Contemplating what can be done
(yeah everyday)
feel the warmth yes I love the light
I just wanna enjoy my life
(with you)

My fists are clenched again
I’m losing my best friend
My mind is a broken lens
Through which I see the world
I’m sorry girl, I am

Now I feel anew
And lifes too short to lose

I am fine
I’ve had time
(But I can’t stop thinking)
It’s not right
(no I can’t stop thinking of you)
It’s not right

But I can only change myself x4.5
Track Name: pt. 4
You’ve got to
Love yourself (x a few times)

With my elbows black and blue
I’m feeling good
Pushing through the neighborhood
That I know from youth
But you know all I want to do
Is dance with you
And for a moment that is true
Yes I love to move
But I’m older than I feel
(and I’ve been falling on my face x4)
I’ve got work to do
Yes I’m older than I feel
I’ve got shit to do x4

But I don’t let it get me down

You think I’m bluffing
That I’ve got nothing
Well let me tell you I can’t waste my time with doubt I’ve been there for too long
(I’m tired of playing fuckin games)
And if there’s something
(I’m tired of livin in my brain)
You think I’m missing
Show me what it is I’m not aware of everything that’s in my head
But I got my ears
(all my senses now)
and I’ve got my mind
(I just want to know)
How is your life x2
Are you filled with pride x2
oOOOOOoOOoOOoOOoOOO
Oh you know you should be
Cause everybody’s done some shit
(like me)
Don’t you know we’re not perfect
(not me)
oh you know that you can’t waste your time with doubt oh if you don’t love yourself you done fucked up
(oh you are not alone, oh no)

cause you’re alright
like I am fine
the day it is mine

and it is alright
if you don’t feel fine
what is on your mind
let me help you unwind
yes it is alright
if you don’t feel fine
what is on your mind
let me help you unwind

cause everybody feels this way
yeah everybody feels this way
I love you just like yesterday
You don’t have to hide away
Cause everybody feels this way
sometimes