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AD EP

by Brian Scott

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1.
pt. 1 03:39
I’ve been running away Didn’t know what to say I don’t feel like myself Said it all anyway Shattered pieces remain Why do I act insane Cause you know all I wanna do is just call your name And that thought remains Every single day But I am not the same I tried all the wrong ways And that thought remains Every single day But I am not the same But I am not the same I’m ashamed of myself All my problems On your shoulders Sink into the abyss Blind to reason I did not see who I was But as the anger fades Clearer it becomes to see Like the sediment sinking deep I know I still got blood in my veins And I’m happy that I do remain Cause I’m young and i've got time to change I’m tired of barking up the wrong tree (next time I won’t even show you the key to me????? x2) I’d forgotten I knew how to climb down And though it felt like a strange disease I’d really just forgotten how to be me Oh that’s the way it seems (x4)
2.
pt. 2 04:41
I’ve been sitting in my room all day (Oh you know) I’ve been staring at the screen tryna think of something to say (Just like before) And I Don’t know Where I’m gonna be next year But I’m hoping that you will be near Oh I’m sorry if that is not fair Well fuck it I love you too much Oh no, I lost my cool again I was cold, I didn’t wanna make a friend All things told, I was searching like a fool of a man For my, home with the stereo playing low All the time pretending I’m the man that you used to know And I did not cope When I was on my own I had nothing going on I didn’t feel like myself And I was wrong To try and restore my health In your arms I did not trust myself anymore, myself anymore So I sunk to the floor, with my foot in the door Making you feel my pain Oh noooooo, oh no, oh why would you sing my name Oh nooo, I proclaim, I’m sorry that I was that way Oh nooo oh no, oh I’m sorry that I did not look inside from your eyes (this time??) Oh and I know it’s too late for me to realize That I wasted your time Oh wish that I could have seen all that I had I did not focus on my life I’m singing oh I missed the boat Oh I’m singing oh but I miss you so Awww yeah you know!
3.
pt. 3 04:33
My fists are clenched again I’m losing my best friend My mind is a broken land But I’ve got no other home Of course I know it’s true I’ll be fine, In due time (But I can’t stop thinking) It’s not right (no I can’t stop thinking of you) It’s not right It’s not right (So everyday) Wake up with the rising Contemplating what can be done (yeah everyday) feel the warmth yes I love the light I just wanna enjoy my life (with you) My fists are clenched again I’m losing my best friend My mind is a broken lens Through which I see the world I’m sorry girl, I am Now I feel anew And lifes too short to lose I am fine I’ve had time (But I can’t stop thinking) It’s not right (no I can’t stop thinking of you) It’s not right But I can only change myself x4.5
4.
pt. 4 04:50
You’ve got to Love yourself (x a few times) With my elbows black and blue I’m feeling good Pushing through the neighborhood That I know from youth But you know all I want to do Is dance with you And for a moment that is true Yes I love to move But I’m older than I feel (and I’ve been falling on my face x4) I’ve got work to do Yes I’m older than I feel I’ve got shit to do x4 But I don’t let it get me down You think I’m bluffing That I’ve got nothing Well let me tell you I can’t waste my time with doubt I’ve been there for too long (I’m tired of playing fuckin games) And if there’s something (I’m tired of livin in my brain) You think I’m missing Show me what it is I’m not aware of everything that’s in my head But I got my ears (all my senses now) and I’ve got my mind (I just want to know) How is your life x2 Are you filled with pride x2 oOOOOOoOOoOOoOOoOOO Oh you know you should be Cause everybody’s done some shit (like me) Don’t you know we’re not perfect (not me) oh you know that you can’t waste your time with doubt oh if you don’t love yourself you done fucked up (oh you are not alone, oh no) cause you’re alright like I am fine the day it is mine and it is alright if you don’t feel fine what is on your mind let me help you unwind yes it is alright if you don’t feel fine what is on your mind let me help you unwind cause everybody feels this way yeah everybody feels this way I love you just like yesterday You don’t have to hide away Cause everybody feels this way sometimes

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Although this album is 4 tracks, it is best thought of as one piece of music in four parts. Each track doesn't function that well on it's own, so if you are going to listen to it I would set aside 20 minutes, put some headphones and get comfortable.

The AD EP (Anti-depression EP) is something I felt I had to do to climb out of a funk I had been in for the past few years. Depression and mental health are things that seem to be poorly understood in this day and age. I felt like taking drugs was just another way of avoiding responsibility for my own happiness, so I prescribed myself an album instead.

Although the main goal of the album was to bring myself out of depression, I also strongly believe that depression is something that almost everyone deals with to some degree. The more people I have talked about it with the more I have been surprised with how they have been able to relate to me, and the better I have felt. It's an incredibly difficult thing to talk about. Maybe I have made it a little easier for somebody out there. I hope so!

I want to thank everyone who has been a part of my life. I Iove you all.

This ep was written and recorded in June-July of 2014

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released August 21, 2014

Music, lyrics and production - Brian Scott
*Ben Archer midi percussion solo featured on pt. 4

Album art by Katy Davis and Brian Scott

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